wow so this is my first blog. lets see how this thing works out for me…..

first of all these blogs are for me. i dont know when ill write and i dont know why im writing. i suppose its really for me to just work out my thoughts. as its easier to type everything up onto the computer than to write it down or even talk to other people about it in person. im just now getting the hang of this site so i still dont quite know how to change around my page and what not but once i do it will be pretty. oh i can see it now!

yesterday i was shopping for some new clothes and it hit me. my self image is soo distorted. i think im soo much larger than i really am. the person i see in the mirror and the person who walks down the street that everyone else sees are completely different.  the pants i tried on are 2 sizes smaller than what i thought i wore. and when i got them i was just “trying them on for fun cause i knew they wouldnt fit”. so theres good news and bad news in this. you see the good news is ive lost weight! and for the bad news. it may not be the healthiest way i have gone about it. but i realize that. i have realized that i have horrible self image and self worth.

thats all i really have to say. oh that and im thinking about meeting this guy i met off facebook. funny i may be doing one of the things i told my parents id never do…. i guess this just proves to say “Never say never!”

i must go. i have to go pick up my best friends sister from school as my best friend is out of town right now.